Love of mine.

There are so many things to say about the person I love. The biggest thing is for him to know I will always love him. It scares me on a daily basis that he might find someone who he likes more.

I'm a Gemini to the core and with saying that it means I have more than one side to my personality.

Part of me will feel whole heartedly for something one moment and then change the next. My love for him is forever though. My biggest problem is that I get so caught up in my own thoughts that I get scared.

My views are constantly changing and I find myself being dragged away with my latest obsessions. My love is a very insecure person at times. I have no doubts whatsoever that he is very much like me. Constantly in a state of self doubt. I always worry that he doesn't know how I feel about him. He has his own things he deals with and I feel sorry that I'm not 100% into everything he is at times. The only thing I can say about it is that at times I feel different about some things or I'm just not in the mood.

Sometimes I want a man.
Sometimes I want a girl.
At times I want both.
Sometimes I want to care for him. Sometimes I want him to care for me.

But it's difficult. My mind can't ever stay in one place. I'm scatter brained and I know it but I don't lie. Not to him. Ever. I'm not always all the way into his interests but then again. Ditto for him.

Holding a job gets difficult even though ive been with mine for a year and some months. I get stressed. I get tired. I get confused.

He is my constant. Forever. I wish I could be the person I know he wants me to be but...I can't. I'm a Gemini. To the core. I am a different person everyday. I look the same. Act the same. Go by the same name. But my head is different. Running with too many thoughts. Too many feelings.

I like to think I'm a positive person. I'm happy. I get sad and worried. Angry. Upset. But I grow each day and change. Nobody can keep up. Least of all him. I know he can't always be what I need at any given time but he tries.

I love him.
What can I say. I'm more than just me.